I have a problem that I need some advice about but I don't want to put it on social media because I know my ex narc still watches me wiith a fake id that they told me about but never told me the details. I am totally no contact with my ex narc, I've stopped posting deliberate barbs and taunts on social media, I've blocked all of his id's that I know and I don't spy on any of them either...
BUT STILL I HAVE STUPID THOUGHTS OF ANGER, DISBELIEF, SADNESS and CONFUSION. WORST OF ALL IS A RIDICULOUS NOTION THAT WE CAN BE FRIENDS, CLOSE FRIENDS, AGAIN!!! thinking that I should apologize for the hurt that I caused him. I DID hurt him most cruely in retaliation for his betrayal of my trust but I did not enjoy doing so, I was simply furious, but that was 1/1000 of what he did to me! We talked of children together, that we were soul mates, everything, a lifetime together...
I know the reality and thruth about his disorder now and I don't blame myself any more, I know that some parts of his story are nothing but delusions, I know he won't ever change, but I still need to know how I can stop these thoughts for good.
Any advice is greatly appreciatted, thank you.
Melissa ♡♡♡